Maybe it’s not that I wasn’t trustworthy enough.

Trust requires the other person to make the decision to give it to you

If it was ever a guarantee, we’d not even need trust to begin with, you’d just know

I am mourning what the relationship wasn’t.

And yet also what connection really was.

What if I am making a mistake here?

I wonder why I’m doubting myself

I deserve to be loved

And I don’t know if I really was

I think he loved me as much as he could

Oftentimes you think things are romantic that really aren’t

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